Here I am again, typing my ass off for a blog that no one cares.. then again it doesn’t matter. Because unlike blogs out there who is created for making money, outlet for rants about the world, or better yet blogs existing for the sole purpose of basking in one’s own misery..I on the other hand do not.
Well.. its currently a ‘Not-so-Sunny’ afternoon in my room here at Sisa. My girl friend and I wished to buy Ukay clothes but remained hostage by the massive crowd of Quiapo.. You know..the black Nazarene thing..then again since we really want to ‘ukay-ukay’ some clothes.. we decided to just head on to espana because there really is quite a selection of ukay clothes there.. anyways…
That part of the blog is not really why I typed today…I just want to share something with the kids out there…..here goes.. ‘P-E-A-C-E’…. PACE..PEACE.
Have anyone of you heard it before? Peace? Of course the answer is YES.. is it not? You know when the day has gone by and you and your friend have nothing else to do and when you searched your brain and it came out ‘empty’, you settle in a very ridiculous child’s play called ‘PENDONG-Peace’….and for the kids out there who doesn’t know.. it is played like this.. you see a 1970’s Volkswagen in the street and you smack the living daylights out of your friend then you say ‘PEACE’ afterwards to avoid a deafening retribution.. ^^ sounds fun isn’t it?
Oh yeah!.. for the ‘cool’ kids out there..peace is used for a stylish ending in one’s statement..like ‘etc..etc..etc.. – Peace out bro!’..and for the politically correct children out there..YES..indeed we often see peace on the newspaper or broadcasted in the television.. it is often seen in a sentence with the Military or government on one end and MILF or NPA on the other.. SO yeah.. we do see and hear Peace all the time.
But then again.. do we really know the meaning of the word? You know.. besides its ‘dictionary’ meaning… DO WE REALLY KNOW PEACE? In a personal level…I think not. Everytime I go out to work.I see people running around aimlessly with their lives… I see people doing something..but not really achieving something…. Even when I go to work I see people all around me doing their work..but not their profession…. Even my comrades are not excluded from that observation.. I see them all bothered inside….smiles on their lips….yet eyes shows the turmoil going on inside them..I for one.. were not excluded…I was also a master of disguise..used to smile when needed..ignoring the same storm that has been brewing for almost all of us.
A lot of us are tired… I know that… I can see it in everyone’s eyes… Tired of one’s existence. Responsibilities…plans…wants…needs. But WHY are we tired? Did it not occur to us that we are simply hampering ourselves? That we are the same enemy inside? The question is why? Why do we fight!? The answer is simple.. we fight because we want something…we WANT to be like this… to be like that.. to have an LCD TV perhaps.. we want a PS3… we want to give a good life to our family perhaps….or we just want to be loved… yeah kids. I know that..^^
The real question is..WHY fight!? Why fight your way to the top? Why fight others just so you can have that THING..that you want? WhY? Everyone of us truly prone to fighting one another because that trait is beneficial in an evolutionary stand point.. but then again during those days you have to outrun and dodge saber-tooth tigers just to take a crap in the forest so yeah it is quite beneficial.. but NOW? You know its not that I’m preaching that we should all just be stupid and prance around like a pony while a snatcher is stealing your stuff..all im saying is.. why fight life? Why so serious!??? What’s with the EMO get-up? What’s with the over-nagative outlook!? What’s up with that!?? MY goodness…believe me it’s a self-defeating game.. to think that ALL People are against you.. that ALL of society is BAD… to think that ALL smiles and faces are out to FUCK you from behind… NO kids. No..as in… NO.
Its crap…simple crap.. for me.. PEACE is not about lolly-gagging all the way to your house..or to your work… or simply being stupid… PEACE is achieved when your MIND is at peace.. yourself is at peace.
Consider these three achievements of Swordsmanship as a guideline:
1st: The sword and the man is united
2nd: The sword exists in one’s heart
3rd: The ABSENCE of the sword in one’s hand and heart
Pretty good shit huh!? ^^
Then again…it is true you know… its not that I killed people or that I am a flying swordsman prancing on top of branches of sakura trees…NO.. I think that the principle above fits us quite well… we are all swordsman.. fighting for our existence in this material plane.. called life. We fight for our beliefs.. for our goals… for our moral values..and philosophies. We fight for the sake of others and for ourselves as well. Everyday of our life we fight and struggle. Yet in all of our fighting we forgot the meaning of PEACE. That is why we’re all tired. That is why we all get sad…
I know it is quite ridiculous to say..or even think that PEACE is attained by surrendering one’s own self to THY self..but why not try it? As for me…I am now at PEACE..
I didn’t had a good childhood..people always finds a way to criticize me for being different.. hence i trained myself to observe others so I will know how to act accordingly. I have always adjusted myself..hence people quite liked me when I was growing up… they said that im a very good chameleon.. melting in the background of any gathering and groups. Then that skill was absorbed in my heart…like being ‘someone’ is no longer a skill but a part of who I am…it became natural for me to ‘adjust’ like breathing..but amidst all the people who ‘liked’ me.. amidst all the people who ‘cares’ for me…I was lost…I was not at peace.. therefore I just found myself…’breaking-down’ once in a while.. perhaps..once a year I just.. breakdown… it continued for God knows how long…and then it dawned on me.. that if I want to be in Peace.. then I should just ‘surrender’…surrender myself to myself…it is not easy task you know.. I was afraid that if I show myself.. people will not like me… so I methodically disarm myself..and gradually I see that there are people out there who are PEOPLE..you know.. people who are not just after your looks or your resources.. but PEOPLE..of course there are some dick heads out there who are FUCKED-up shits and suddenly disappeared.. But you know what? I don’t care.. I am Happy.. at Peace with the world.. at peace with myself.
I am proud to say.. that I am no longer armed.. sure I’m still a very shrewd guy who will observe you until I deemed that you’re not an asshole..(believe me.. I know when someone’s pretentious.. I was once like them..) I still think quite a lot..(I did not became stupid!).. BUT I am unarmed..walking in this plane without the encumbrance of an armor. I am ME. MYSELF. And yeah I ROCK!! Hahahaha!
You should try it too…be free.. be at peace.
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