..ahhh.. christmas..CHRISTmas.
or should I say.. XMAS..kind of an idiotic abbreviation don't you think? ^^ anyways im not a die hard catholic so i really don't give a rat's ass..but then again out of respect for all my fellow human beings out there i'll just call it Christmas.
the past holiday revealed more things about my family.. things that i really didn't know..things that made me think and reevaluate my disposition when it comes to dealing with them..sure i can still predict their behaviors given a situation but apparently there are still a lot of things that i didn't know 'exist' in all of them.. for instance.. i have always thought that my nephew is a good for nothi'n lying bastard but you know what? talking to him really revealed that he is still a kid...a kid who is afraid and nothing to look on for empathy but a PC and all the online games that will just provide temporary respite..tsk..tsk..tsk..
ofcourse im not an 'intellectual bastard' who just says stuff just to look smart..sad to say kids.. NO..sorry to disappoint.. as i said i have always thought that he will be a BIG trouble to our family.. you know..because kids especially boys in their teenage years are nothing but WALKING PENISES controlled by their TESTOSTERONE..but as a human being who is eternally curious..i observed him...observe...observe.. got him to 'open-up' his emotional distresses and listen to covert languages amidst his social talk..but the definitive proof that i was looking for is the time when we three (Sis..the kid.. and ME) are in a MALL..the kid says his hungry so we decided to buy things in PAO TSIN (love the food there..hainanese rice..good shit man..) anyways..as usual..I distanced myself from the throngs and watched how this particular situation will play out for all of the 'pip's' within that space and time. When suddenly..sis came barging out of that space with a look on her face that says "GOD DAMN i GIVE up dealing with this SHIT"..and before i can slip out a word..she says (well..i don't really want to share the whole thing coz its quite ugly and undignified..so ill just rephrase it..) "I am disappointed in my son, because he did some mistakes in dealing with the cashier of Pao Tsin which should not have been done if one uses his brain.".. so there.. a somewhat accurate representation of what she said...and for all the "macabé" out there.. NO I WILL NOT TYPE THE EXACT THINGS that came out of her mouth..moving on..i looked to the kid standing there in a very perplexed posture..fanning himself with his shirt and wiping the sweats off his brow..one can not help but conclude that this person is "FUCKED up out of His MIND with FEAR.."..yeah kids.. HE is AFRAID.. so what i said was simple.."Takot lang yung bata..intindihin mo na lang.."..then i gazed in her eyes..and saw enlightenment to the situation...i let her be and stand beside the kid.. and i said "Wag kang matakot.. kaya mo yan.. tao lang yang mga yan.. at Pao Tsin lang yan.. para ka lang bumibili sa tindahan.."..and for me the most happiest thing that happened is when i saw my Sis stood beside the kid and said in plain text 'Wag kang matakot.'---- simple three words..yet a whole book is not enough to define its meaning...and YES..i am very very happy in that single seemingly insignificant moment..when an injured soul who was not able understand anything about the kid..reached out her hand and said that "I understand.."
and for that insignificant-less-than-a-minute situation i got my Christmas Gift.
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