Farewell M.J.

I did not plan on writing a blog this afternoon, nor the whole day. Yet as i begin my usual day at the office. i received an email informing me that a friend has passed away. Her name was M.J. she was a friend of my girlfriend. Indeed i do not know her long enough to call her my friend but her death made me sad.

M.J. had a career at 711 corp. as a Management Trainee. She was a graduate of U.P. with a degree on Engineering. She had a good heart and a real sense of professionalism. She was so professional to the point the she actually cried when she was reprimanded for a minor situation. Honestly she made me laugh that day, spilling her heart out in front of me and jerin (a.k.a. g.f.). Because of a situation that most of us will shrug off.

As I said, she had a good heart.. too good perhaps that she opted to leave everything (her career, her family, her well-being) just so she can serve God as a Nun. That move really surprised me, it was so bold and courageous that I found that i have a sudden deep respect for her. We have to admit that almost all of us are so attached to all of this things in our lives that we are afraid to loose them... afraid to shake the 'status quo', afraid to step up to the challenge, afraid to loose ourselves... but M.J. is different. She is willing to do anything, sacrifice everything she has to do what she WANTED to do.. and for that she have my respect and admiration.

time passes by unhindered.... i didn't have any more news from her.. well.. i know that she is having a good time. who wouldn't? but then..i received news that she needs blood donation for a certain sickness. Ofcourse i thought..naah its nothing..then..i found out she passed away.. she finally reached God directly. as a mere mortal i am sad.. but as i think about it..she's the most happiest of us all. finally...no more travelling to the scum infested streets of manila..no more tired sleepless nights.. no more back breaking work..no more thinking.... no more anxiety.. no more fears.. just rest.

happiness beyond our wildest dreams..sweet....eternal....rest with God.

People will say that it is sad..but i choose otherwise..i am truly happy for her..in fact i envy her. she found what she want in life...she also found what she wanted in death. rest..

i've been searching for it all my life... just to stop everything..to stop thinking... to stop..to rest...life as i see it is really really really ironic..those who deserves to live..dies... those who deserves death...lives.. but who are we to judge? maybe it is her fate..maybe it is my fate.

i don't have the courage that she had..almost all of her friends don't have it as well. but one thing is for sure... she thought us a valuable lesson. That is to STEP UP..do what you want to do. There will be risks there will be challenges, there will be sacrifices...but it doesn't matter. As long as you reach your goal...as lone as you are doing what you have always wanted.. then it is all worth it.